| | no more study for the year....hing soong sai....but still have to wait for results in nov/dec? before there is really sth to celebrate about...really not confident with insolvency aye....yuck! worried ga and scared tim..i dont know how i'll take it if i do fail...it will be a very big dar dik....really ga...its like a fear....genuine fear...theres a lot i get worried about and this is one of them...the fear of disappointing friends, family and myself too... must admit, its def good to have one thing less to worry about tho hopefully i can put the stress behind me, get more good sleep, relax a bit more, hormones settle so i dont get random breakouts again HAHAH went out first thing friday to celebrate my newfound freedom (somewhat) fiday night, had a great night until the day after..mm gg leh....gork duk ji gei jun hai yum dor jor..acted and behaved not the usual me...and thats what im annoyed at myself for....i feel like an ass..i feel embarassed, i feel wrong?? i think i get too caught up in the moment and then it makes me feel rude....i become way too carefree, cant self protect (not that way, but like mm sik ji bo), end up trusting pplz around me too easily (and maybe some i shouldnt even trust to start off with - i mean, heck how well do i know the person?) so its all fun and games during the night until you cop the consequences the day after...when you regain some common sense and realise...gzz carol shame on you - would you have really done that if it was the usual you? chances are no... makes me wonder, why do i allow myself to go through that leh? all in the name of fun? i guess the saying 'under the influence' describes it perfectly (very tip chit) so yes thats my random thoughts for tonight moving along tho..i think november will be a busy month with celebrations...bdays..catchups...the lot!! really hope to be hoi sum d and also with for everyone around me to be happy also...hope worries will come and go, problems get resolved, and that we all learn to be stronger to deal with all the challenges ahead of us |
| | Posted 11/1/2009 10:48 PM - 3 Views
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